I lost my very best friend

[incidentally]

No matter what your beliefs, if you would take a few minutes to listen to this song, it would mean a lot to me.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CRyKg5xMaXA

Fly with the angles little guy. You were my heart...my reason...my strength.

tally

[doctor_J]

I'm not sure what happened but I know you are in pain. I suspect a beloved pet? I know your pain and it brings tears to my eyes thinking of my similar loss. I'll whisper a prayer for you and your loved one, Tally.

[Susan43]

No matter what your beliefs, if you would take a few minutes to listen to this song, it would mean a lot to me.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CRyKg5xMaXA

Fly with the angles little guy. You were my heart...my reason...my strength.

tally

That was just beautiful Tally. I'm so sorry you're in pain. I'll say a prayer for you tonight that the pain starts to ease.

[Details]

So sorry to hear that you lost someone.

[incidentally]

The pain is unbearable. Thank you, so very much, for taking time for me..us.

I don't know how to deal with this, except for a minute at a time.

I don't expect anyone to understand because even I don't, won't, can't.

I only hope you guys will help me say goodbye.


tally

[Susan43]

The pain is unbearable. Thank you, so very much, for taking time for me..us.

I don't know how to deal with this, except for a minute at a time.

I don't expect anyone to understand because even I don't, won't, can't.

I only hope you guys will help me say goodbye.


tally

Tally, it's a beginning to handle the pain for a minute at a time. Then it will be 5 min and then 10 and eventually you will be able to handle it. Please keep that in mind. The pain won't be this intense forever. I know it seems unbearable right now, but it won't be forever.

And maybe this sounds a little strange, but you don't have to say good-bye. You can just say, "see you later." With all my heart I believe that death doesn't end loving relationships. It just puts them on hold for awhile. Because love doesn't die.

[imc_e]

:rose:

Bless you.

[lune3]

I am so very sorry.

Keep something close to you, a photograph, a small belonging, something you can touch...it helps a little bit for now while your grief is so intense.

I will say a prayer for you, and for your little guy.

[VC2]

The pain is unbearable. Thank you, so very much, for taking time for me..us.

I don't know how to deal with this, except for a minute at a time.

I don't expect anyone to understand because even I don't, won't, can't.

I only hope you guys will help me say goodbye.


tally
Tally you will cope..you will cope for your little guy, the one who is now an angel on your shoulder. He says "mom, until we meet again, help others like me, i know they wont take my place, but when you are ready i will help you both"

You will cope because you gave your little guy the best love and home possible. You will cry as you think of the memories and notice the holes left in the house by his absence, but be grateful you had your little guy to make the holes that are there now.

My prayers are with you

[kitty1182]

:rose: I am sorry.:sad:

[Len]

No matter what your beliefs, if you would take a few minutes to listen to this song, it would mean a lot to me.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CRyKg5xMaXA

Fly with the angles little guy. You were my heart...my reason...my strength.

tally


I am so sorry for your loss. I hope you get the strength and feel better soon.

[seawolf4]

I remember for the first time understanding why people want to gash open their heads, cut off their hair...when the grief is so strong.
The pain never leaves completely, BUT it DOES ease with time.
You are in my thoughts. Beautiful song.

[msgatorslayer]

I am so sorry for your loss. :rose:

[sofiesmom]

I'm sorry, tally. My husband walked through the door while the song was playing and told me that that's the song that our neighbor sang at his son's funeral. It's beautiful.

Are you ok?

[R~O~S]

The pain is unbearable. Thank you, so very much, for taking time for me..us.

I don't know how to deal with this, except for a minute at a time.

I don't expect anyone to understand because even I don't, won't, can't.

I only hope you guys will help me say goodbye.


tally


I love you Tally. I'm so deeply sorry for your loss.

When you can, you'll tell us. It's not time yet.

There are no words you'll find comfort in, so know that my heart and thoughts are with you as you wander through the stages of grief.

Only time will help you move past the pain and finally bring you to a place that let's you smile when fond memories come to mind.

:rose::rose::rose:

[MrsBeesley]

I'm sorry for your loss. I hope when the time is right, you'll go find a new furry friend at the shelter to give all your love to. :rose:

[Carol25]

Tally, I can't tell you how sorry I am for you. You will be togetheer again. In the meantime both of you can share the memories and anticipate your meeting again.

But I know it's hard. So very hard.:rose::rose:I'm thinking of you.

[Jayne]

Oh, Tally..I am so sorry for your loss. So many - all of - the posters here have said such wonderful things and given you great comforting thoughts and suggestions - I second them. I'm guessing this is a beloved pet? The pain is difficult to deal with, and over time it will lessen into the fondest of memories. I don't know your beliefs, but I believe they are "there" waiting for us and give us comfort here on earth even though they are "gone". If you want to "talk" you can PM anytime..share some of your stories/memories if you'd like - I think it helps. It did for me when my Mom passed away a year ago - many would "just listen".

love and prayers to you and your family, Tally.

J

[coffee1950j]

So very sorry Tally. My belief is that we WILL meet them again someday. That's all that kept me going when I lost my very best friend.
:crying:

:rose:

[Spyder88]

Oh Tally, this is so painful for you. I'm so sorry. You're in my thoughts and prayers.

It won't be forever, honey. You'll see him again. He's received his final healing and lies content and safe in the arms of his creator.

:rose: :rose:

http://www.mamarocks.com/rose_beyond_the_wall.htm

:rose:

[LILMANMAX]

I am so deeply sorry for your loss and feel your pain. Take your time to deal with your grief and it will begin to ease at some point. It may not seem like it now but it will. You will always have your precious memories and he will always be with you.

And take solace that your heart will sing again and find unconditional love and the best friendship on earth.

My prayers are with you both. :rose:

[warhorse46]

Tally I am so sorry for your loss. I know the wounds are deep & painful now & altho the pain will never completely go away it will ease with time. Now is the time to allow others to lend support until you are strong enought to stand alone again. Our shoulders are wide & stong, built for supporting those who need it. Draw on the good memories of your friend you have tucked away in your heart.

[rem16]

So very sorry for your loss Tally..:rose: Beautiful song.

[incidentally]

Thank you everyone. Your words have helped bring hope and comfort.

It's just so painful. I find it hard to even breath.

Someday I hope I can tell you about him, what he went through for and with me. I guess he felt I was now strong enough to go it alone. I hope I can prove him right.

tally

[warhorse46]

Thank you everyone. Your words have helped bring hope and comfort.

It's just so painful. I find it hard to even breath.

Someday I hope I can tell you about him, what he went through for and with me. I guess he felt I was now strong enough to go it alone. I hope I can prove him right.

tally



Although it's difficult today to see beyond the sorrow,
May looking back in memory help comfort you tomorrow.
~Author Unknown

While we are mourning the loss of our friend, others are rejoicing to meet him behind the veil. ~John Taylor

[kitty1182]

Thank you everyone. Your words have helped bring hope and comfort.

It's just so painful. I find it hard to even breath.

Someday I hope I can tell you about him, what he went through for and with me. I guess he felt I was now strong enough to go it alone. I hope I can prove him right.

tally

He knows how much he was loved and I'm sure he lived like a King...
When you feel like it, I would love to hear about him...:wub:

[daniel green]

Oh, Tally, I am so sorry.

How can we help you?

Would you tell us a bit about him?

[incidentally]

Oh, Tally, I am so sorry.

How can we help you?

Would you tell us a bit about him?


I can't right now. I'm not ready. It's all I can do to hold on but I will get through this.

tally

[daniel green]

Well, we're here. You tell us what to do.

We're here for you.

[rem16]

HEAVEN'S DOGGIE DOOR


My best friend closed his eyes last night, As his head was in my hand.

The Doctors said he was in pain,

And it was hard for him to stand.

The thoughts that scurried through my head,

As I cradled him in my arms. Were of his younger, puppy years,

And OH...his many charms.

Today, there was no gentle nudge

With an intense "I love you gaze",

Only a heart that's filled with tears

Remembering our joy filled days.

But an Angel just appeared to me,

And he said, "You should cry no more,

God also loves our canine friends,

He's installed a 'doggy-door"!

http://www.geocities.com/Petsburgh/2540/door.html

:rose: Your best friend 4ever

[PatC]

Dearest Tally.... my heart goes out to you and I can tell you from personal experience that the sooner you can bring yourself to start telling us about your lost loved one the better you will feel... even when you type with tears running down your cheeks as I had to do at first. In the meantime:

CLICK HERE (http://i58.photobucket.com/albums/g258/PatC_pics/deathfairy.jpg)

[wasapi]

Someone once said, "There is no graceful way to grieve". Please don't let anyone make you feel that you need to grieve in a certain way or in a certain time frame.

It hurts just thinking of what you are going through. To tell you that I've been where you are now and survived is not to diminish your pain in any way.

Just please know this; You are now in the prayers of many of us here. There are no magic words to make it go away, but we are lifting you up and holding you in our thoughts.

I'm so glad you reached out. Don't hesitate to do so for as long as you need. And I'm only a pm away.

[Spyder88]

Someday I hope I can tell you about him, what he went through for and with me. I guess he felt I was now strong enough to go it alone. I hope I can prove him right.

tally

There's no doubt in my mind you will prove him right. You may feel alone right now, but you know he'll always be with you. Always and forever an intrical part of you. Nothing can change that.

It's almost too painful to breathe right now, I know. Every breath is shakey and your heart actually feels like it's bleeding. :sad: I'm so sorry you have to suffer like this.

When you're ready to talk, we'll be here.

[5boxersmom]

I am so sorry. :rose:

[incidentally]

Thank you. Grief is a personal journey. I go from unbelievable sadness, to anger, to numb, to...well a whole lot of other emotions I didn't know existed.

I know many here don't understand the depth of pain one goes through when they lose a pet..for me a therapy pet. I thank those that have read this thread, can't connect and have moved on.

tally

frankly, I don't know what I'm trying to say..

[Carol25]

Thank you. Grief is a personal journey. I go from unbelievable sadness, to anger, to numb, to...well a whole lot of other emotions I didn't know existed.

I know many here don't understand the depth of pain one goes through when they lose a pet..for me a therapy pet. I thank those that have read this thread, can't connect and have moved on.

tally

frankly, I don't know what I'm trying to say..
I have lost my best friend, my confidante. The grief is overwhelming. Just cry...that's all you can do right now. Until things make sense again.

[kitty1182]

Thank you. Grief is a personal journey. I go from unbelievable sadness, to anger, to numb, to...well a whole lot of other emotions I didn't know existed.

I know many here don't understand the depth of pain one goes through when they lose a pet..for me a therapy pet. I thank those that have read this thread, can't connect and have moved on.

tally

frankly, I don't know what I'm trying to say..

When I lost my Molly 3 yrs. ago, my whole being was lost.....I was numb...My heart goes out to you...

[Noahs ARK]

I guess he felt I was now strong enough to go it alone. I hope I can prove him right.

tally

You can prove him right and it will be because of your love for him.

I'm sorry to hear the sad news, Tally. I know your pain all too well. It just never gets easier.

But I believe the 2 of you will be reunited one day. :wub:

[beespence]

Tally...I am so sorry for your sadness, your pain & your loss....I am hugging you both in my heart...:rose:

[barskin&co.]

I'm so sorry, Tally. We who have had pets and suffered their loss (and there are a lot of us, here), know just how you feel.

:rose:

[Beach]

I am so sorry for your loss, Tally.

[Dunlurken]

I'm still not over the pain of losing my cat "Thunder", and it's been years. Now we have Lightning. I hope it will provide some comfort to know that my "Thunder" is helping your precious loved one along. Thunder was like that. He would have given you the coat off his back. :rose:

Every time I hear "thunder" during a storm, I know it's him talking to me. And we still have pictures of him sitting around the house. And I have his tag on my key chain. I sure did love my Thunder. Almost killed me to lose him. My husband too, and he didn't even like cats until we got Thunder.

[imc_e]

I remember losing my beloved maltese, Tonka Toy.

I could not speak for 3 days.

I'll never forget you Tonka, my baby. :rose:

[incidentally]

Is it silly...or insane to keep looking for "signs" that he remembers me? Is that being selfish?

[wasapi]

Thank you. Grief is a personal journey. I go from unbelievable sadness, to anger, to numb, to...well a whole lot of other emotions I didn't know existed.

I know many here don't understand the depth of pain one goes through when they lose a pet..for me a therapy pet. I thank those that have read this thread, can't connect and have moved on.

tally

frankly, I don't know what I'm trying to say..

Believe me, you are expressing yourself well.

And oh, you are so right about some people just not 'getting it'. They are the ones that say, "Well, get another cat/dog/bird,ect.", as if it were just that easy.

But there are also many of us who have spent those grief-filled days and nights, understanding where the term "broken heart" comes from. There are many of us who wondered if we would ever stop crying, ever stop hurting. Many of us have wondered if we would ever have that perfect unconditional love again. The type of love that only these special little friends - and family members - are capable of giving.

I know that a little creature left a large hole in your heart. It will be filled again. In time. Just as the little one would have wanted for you.

[Carol25]

Is it silly...or insane to keep looking for "signs" that he remembers me? Is that being selfish?

When I lost 8Ball, God must have known my loss was so great, that one night in bed, before I went to sleep, I closed my eyes, and there she was! She was healthy and barking like crazy! Although she wasn't telling me she was fine and she loved me too, which I would have expected, She was telling me she "made it!"

And it seemed she was reacting to something to her right because she kept looking over there. She was standing next to someone in a white robe. But Oh she was so happy and her tail was wagging fiercely! As she kept saying she made it, finally from her right came George! George was her best friend who had passed earlier and off they ran together!

I sat up and cried with happiness! She was well and happy and found George! Hadn't had even thought of that! Then I realized it was my loss, but I could handle it better knowing she was fine. And so much better, No more suffering. I'll see her again and what a joyous moment it will be. I thanked God for that experience. He knew I needed that knowledge.

No, you are not insane, being silly or selfish.

[kitty1182]

Is it silly...or insane to keep looking for "signs" that he remembers me? Is that being selfish?

No..I did the same when I lost Molly.....About a week later, hubby was working 3rd shift..I was laying on my left side and had my right arm without the covers on it..As I was laying there crying, all of a sudden the cover slowley started up my arm, I'm not kidding...I knew then Molly didn't want me to cry, she was running free like a pup again......
I knew she would want me give another the life she had, that is when somebody asked me had I ever rescued, I had not.
I went to blueridgeboxerrescue.com and the first boxer that came up was the one I have now and her name was already Holly......
I still miss and think about Molly and it's been 3 years now, but I know she is happy knowing another is getting much deserved loved like she did.....
She was treated like a Queen.Holly is treated the same way..
I will say, I would always do a rescue now....The love in Holly's eyes just glow and she tries to please me so much..
Go ahead and cry....I cried till I couldn't anymore....
I do believe one day I will see Molly and Sarge(my first boxer) again.
God would not give us such love to not be able to see them again..

[Jayne]

Julia..wonderful post to Tally...and others, too!

Wanted to PM you Tally..but it's disabled. Wanted to share something I did with my "first" cat (when on my own, from home) when she died..just in case it might be something you'd want to do and if there is still "time".

I had her cremated..the vet gave me a beautiful plaque with place for a photo...I've carried it with me (very securely) for 18 years..the ashes are in an engraved oak box..to be buried with mine..my Dad knows/promised..we buried Mom last year..and it's "allowed"..that all of our ashes will be placed in boxes/urns on top of mom - it's in my Trust docs. A friend told me she did that with her beloved canine..so I did the same. (may be strange to many) Her memories are in my heart and in photos..and she sort of "lives" through my present feline(s).

Know that many of us here share your "sorrow".

[incidentally]

All your post make me feel certain I will get through this. Thank you so very, very much.

Jayne, my pm's are not disabled. I'm not sure why you can't pm me but your words here give me much comfort.

tally

[Carol25]

I had 8Ball cremated, too. Her stone reads, "If tears could build a ladder, I would climb right up there and bring you back down again."

[Dunlurken]

I don't know that it ever gets "better". I have never seen my husband cry like a baby except when his dog, Brut, died, then a cat? It's crazy when I look forward to thunder storms. I know that's my buddy talking to me.

Right after we put him down, the next day, we had a HUGE thunder storm, and a rainbow followed. I swear....... that really happened.

It doesn't get "better", it gets easier. I think that's what I'm trying to say.

[sunstar]

Just this side of heaven is a place called Rainbow Bridge.

When an animal dies that has been especially close to someone here, that pet goes to Rainbow Bridge. There are meadows and hills for all of our special friends so they can run and play together. There is plenty of food, water and sunshine, and our friends are warm and comfortable.

All the animals who had been ill and old are restored to health and vigor. Those who were hurt or maimed are made whole and strong again, just as we remember them in our dreams of days and times gone by. The animals are happy and content, except for one small thing; they each miss someone very special to them, who had to be left behind.

They all run and play together, but the day comes when one suddenly stops and looks into the distance. His bright eyes are intent. His eager body quivers. Suddenly he begins to run from the group, flying over the green grass, his legs carrying him faster and faster.

You have been spotted, and when you and your special friend finally meet, you cling together in joyous reunion, never to be parted again. The happy kisses rain upon your face; your hands again caress the beloved head, and you look once more into the trusting eyes of your pet, so long gone from your life but never absent from your heart.

Then you cross Rainbow Bridge together....

Author unknown...


:rose: My prayers for you, Tally.

[sunstar]

Julia..wonderful post to Tally...and others, too!

Wanted to PM you Tally..but it's disabled. Wanted to share something I did with my "first" cat (when on my own, from home) when she died..just in case it might be something you'd want to do and if there is still "time".

I had her cremated..the vet gave me a beautiful plaque with place for a photo...I've carried it with me (very securely) for 18 years..the ashes are in an engraved oak box..to be buried with mine..my Dad knows/promised..we buried Mom last year..and it's "allowed"..that all of our ashes will be placed in boxes/urns on top of mom - it's in my Trust docs. A friend told me she did that with her beloved canine..so I did the same. (may be strange to many) Her memories are in my heart and in photos..and she sort of "lives" through my present feline(s).

Know that many of us here share your "sorrow".
Thank you Jayne for the beautiful idea. I'd never thought of being able to have pets buried with humans, but this is a wonderful way to keep them with us forever. :smile:

[Dunlurken]

Thunder has been gone about 8-9 years. We still put up his stocking each Christmas. Little tiny thing....but it was his. Okay, enough for me.

And my Lightning..... what a piece of work he is. Scared of everyone, including his own shadow. But he brings me gifts (which I could do without, thank you very much.) :rolleyes:

That's why we named him Lightning, in honor of Thunder.

[Noahs ARK]

I had her cremated..the vet gave me a beautiful plaque with place for a photo...I've carried it with me (very securely) for 18 years..the ashes are in an engraved oak box..to be buried with mine..my Dad knows/promised..we buried Mom last year..and it's "allowed"..that all of our ashes will be placed in boxes/urns on top of mom - it's in my Trust docs. A friend told me she did that with her beloved canine..so I did the same. (may be strange to many) Her memories are in my heart and in photos..and she sort of "lives" through my present feline(s).

Know that many of us here share your "sorrow".

We have all our animals cremated. Their ashes are in beautiful wooden boxes and I attach a picture to each one.

Their ashes will be buried with ours.

[lune3]

Is it silly...or insane to keep looking for "signs" that he remembers me? Is that being selfish?

No it is not silly.

When I lost my beloved Lola, I was walking outside at night. I was so very sad and looked at the sky, thinking of her, so far away now amongst the stars. I was "talking" to her, and then suddenly I saw the shooting star cross the sky. The same thing happened the following night, again when I least expected it.

I believe these "signs" are part of the comfort given us, through a dimension we do not understand. I believe our beloved animals are part of that world and that they, like our human loved ones who pass on, and the evolved guardian angels who help with the process are aware of our consciousness and our love. We, still on earth, do not have the capability to understand the evolving of our souls as we learn our lessons in this life but I believe that once we pass, we become "aware" and we again "meet" those who we loved, who loved us, to whom we are forever connected.

These "signs", they come from nowhere I think, I mean that they happen when you least expect them and when your heart is quiet and receptive. Through our grief we are not quite clear because our emotions are so intense. But I believe in synchronicity, meaning there are forces which somehow "match up" to our innermost spiritual needs. Things that are more than coincidence.

I believe that your dear little guy "knows" you love him and that he knows you must pass through this grief as part of your lessons on earth in order that you become more evolved if you will. You have given him great love in his life, great care and compassion, and that is your greatest gift to him, and to yourself. And I believe he and the "angels" who surround him now in that new dimension and consciousness "know" that, and you will be rewarded when your own time comes because of what you gave.

If you look for signs, you may not see them because you are looking too hard. I know that was my case. You may expect one thing but something may be manifested in another most unexpected way. Try very much to quiet your heart, do not "look for" things, but be open. I do know that my experience, when I have lost beloved pets, that this communication and comfort would happen in the strangest ways, in dreams, in sudden little events, and at the time I would question was that a sign? Was that a connection? And I believe it was because there were so particular.

Please be assured that your fear that he does not remember you is unfounded. As souls you are connected and I believe there are those beings who help with this transition for you. And no, it is not selfish, love is never selfish.

I promise you the pain will ease, you will miss him greatly but eventually you will quieten and know the love between you is permanent even though we cannot be physically in the same place, for now.

[indie lost]

Thank you. Grief is a personal journey. I go from unbelievable sadness, to anger, to numb, to...well a whole lot of other emotions I didn't know existed.

I know many here don't understand the depth of pain one goes through when they lose a pet..for me a therapy pet. I thank those that have read this thread, can't connect and have moved on.

tally

frankly, I don't know what I'm trying to say..

I lost my first dog over thirty years ago. I ended up in the mental hospital for six weeks. It wasn't JUST that but it was most of it. I know..I do. I've raised and given up seven assistance dogs. I know.

And I am so d@mn sorry for your grief. There are no words I can say to make it better. But I can say that I was there and lived through it. I survived. You will too....in time. It does not feel like that now...I know. Unconditional love is hard to give up.

[emdragon]

I am so very sorry for your loss.

I understand the pain all to well since it hasn't been 2 months since we lost our Samurai, just reading this thread brings tears to my eyes.
I'm glad the "Rainbow Bridge" Poem was posted for you gut wrenching as it is right now. I thought I would add this
http://rainbowsbridge.com/CandleLighting_Tribute/default.htm

They have a candlelight memorial every Monday and offer a place to write a tribute.

I kind of felt good to let others know what a great cat he was but what helped more was seeing that so very many people were all grieving as I was and I wasn't alone or crazy to be so upset about a cat.

Just know that we understand and are all here for you.

[SavannahStar]

{{{{{Tally}}}}}

I am so sorry.

[Nic99]

I too am so sorry for your loss Tally. We lost our dear cat 2 years ago to a road accident, it takes time and you have to grieve, they are part of the family. My dear neighbours also lost their cat unexpectedly and when I went to see them the husband (who doesn't normally show too much emotion) cried infront of me. I felt so helpless for them and wished I could bring their cat back, but I know that just by being there for them it does help. Pets are a part of the family and I think its a lovely idea of Jayne's about the ashes.

You can be sure that you gave them a truly wonderful, happy life.

You take care Tally

Nic x

[CelticDawn]

I am so sorry for your loss, Tally....

I will not say that I know what you are going through because every loss is different...everyone's grief is their own, but I will say a prayer for you and for your little guy.

I believe that this life is just a part of our journey ....that you two will find each other again someday. :rose:

[sofiesmom]

Thank you. Grief is a personal journey. I go from unbelievable sadness, to anger, to numb, to...well a whole lot of other emotions I didn't know existed.

I know many here don't understand the depth of pain one goes through when they lose a pet..for me a therapy pet. I thank those that have read this thread, can't connect and have moved on.

tally

frankly, I don't know what I'm trying to say..I connect. My made up face is ruined from the tears.

When I lost my little Simon to Parvo (he'd had his shots), I went numb, then mad at the doctors,my husband, and myself.

Simon had given me a big scratch on my ankle before he got sick. Don't read the rest if your easily grossed out:

I kept that scratch alive as long as I could by messing with the scab constantly. Now I have a scar...my Simon scar.

Every single day I get upset with God about the fact that my expected life span is so much longer than that of my dogs. It just doesn't seem fair.

[Spyder88]

http://www.quoteland.com/author.asp?AUTHOR_ID=7

[incidentally]

Thank you again, so very much.

I was able to get a couple hours of peaceful sleep and now I'm going to try and do that pesky thing called eating.

[i4doors]

tally, i am so very sorry for your loss. :crying: i lost my Sugar 27 yrs ago when i was a teenager...i still miss and cry for him now. :crying: he was a beautiful boston terrier...15 yrs old when he passed. be strong...and know that people do understand your love of your pet.:sad:

[sunstar]

I connect. My made up face is ruined from the tears.

When I lost my little Simon to Parvo (he'd had his shots), I went numb, then mad at the doctors,my husband, and myself.

Simon had given me a big scratch on my ankle before he got sick. Don't read the rest if your easily grossed out:

I kept that scratch alive as long as I could by messing with the scab constantly. Now I have a scar...my Simon scar.

Every single day I get upset with God about the fact that my expected life span is so much longer than that of my dogs. It just doesn't seem fair.
(bolding mine)

I believe HE made it that way so we can fill our lives with as many of HIS precious little creatures as possible. :smile:

[sunstar]

Thank you again, so very much.

I was able to get a couple hours of peaceful sleep and now I'm going to try and do that pesky thing called eating.

I'm glad you're feeling a little better. Stay strong and keep the happy memories in your mind! :wub:

[kitty1182]

(bolding mine)

I believe HE made it that way so we can fill our lives with as many of HIS precious little creatures as possible. :smile:

I think He did too..:wub:

[sunstar]

I think He did too..:wub:

I know you do! :wub: I've always had a few cats at one time and whenever one dies of old age, shortly afterward another one comes along in my life who needs a home. Right now we have three indoors and a few from the neighborhood who come by and eat on the back yard patio. :smile:

[daniel green]

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I know many here don't understand the depth of pain one goes through when they lose a pet..for me a therapy pet. I thank those that have read this thread, can't connect and have moved on.

..

We understand. And we feel so sad with you. Just let us know what you need us to do and we're right here for you.

The grief is intense and horrible.

We're here.

[theal3]

So sorry Tally, grieve, but know that time heals the wounds.

[kOOkie1]

So Sorry Tally...:(
My thoughts are with you..I hope your heart is lightened swiftly-

[GentleBreeze]

Thank you everyone. Your words have helped bring hope and comfort.

It's just so painful. I find it hard to even breath.

Someday I hope I can tell you about him, what he went through for and with me. I guess he felt I was now strong enough to go it alone. I hope I can prove him right.

tally

Tally, I really wish that we had the ability to ease your pain but unfortunately only time will do that. Your heart has been gravely wounded and grief surrounds you now. I know what it feels like to lose a very best friend and the pain and sadness is indescribable. You are correct, it leaves you unable to think of anything else and makes it even hard to breathe. I wanted to curl up in a fetal position and I did for three weeks. I never realized how many tears could flow from one human's eyes. Losing our sweet precious Ruffles was like losing a child.

I would love to know all about him and what made him so special to you. It does let me know though that you have wonderful memories of your special one and while he has gone on now those memories will be forever with you. Those.......no one can take away from you and will be tucked away in that special place in your heart that holds your love for him and only him. I believe he loved you as much as you love him and in time you will realize he would never want to see you unhappy.

But time is the only thing that will help ease your pain. You will still cry for him at times but there will come a day when a smile comes to your face when you think of all the great things you did together.

I hope his beautiful spirit flies higher than eagles dare to fly!

I will be thinking about you and my heart goes out to you.

imo

[GentleBreeze]

(bolding mine)

I believe HE made it that way so we can fill our lives with as many of HIS precious little creatures as possible. :smile:

I think that is true, sun. So many pets need someone to love them and think they are special. I have had dogs and cats all my life and each one was special to me.

After the love of our life died I couldn't bring myself to have another dog. I just didn't want to go through that pain again if I lost that one too for some reason. But as time went on and at the urging of my children, I relented a little over a year after Ruffles' death and one of our daughters' gave me a Malti Poo for Mothers day. Although Maggie Mae will never replace Ruffles' special place in our hearts she is an adorable dog whom we both love deeply.

imo

[adair]

:rose:

I know hard much it hurts, its unbelievable how much a part of our daily lives they are. He was loved, and he knows that. You guys will be together again someday.

Take care of yourself.

((((hugs)))

[warhorse46]

Is it silly...or insane to keep looking for "signs" that he remembers me? Is that being selfish?


I Stood By Your Bed Last Night



I stood by your bed last night, I came to have a peep. I could see that you were crying, You found it hard to sleep.

I whined to you softly as you brushed away a tear, "It's me, I haven't left you, I'm well, I'm fine, I'm here."

I was close to you at breakfast, I watched you pour the tea, You were thinking of the many times, your hands reached down to me.

I was with you at the shops today, Your arms were getting sore. I longed to take your parcels, I wish I could do more.

I was with you at my grave today, You tend it with such care. I want to reassure you, that I'm not lying there.

I walked with you towards the house, as you fumbled for your key. I gently put my paw on you, I smiled and said "it's me."

You looked so very tired, and sank into a chair. I tried so hard to let you know, that I was standing there.

It's possible for me to be so near you everyday. To say to you with certainty, "I never went away."

You sat there very quietly, then smiled, I think you knew, in the stillness of that evening, I was very close to you.

The day is over... I smile and watch you yawning and say "good-night, God bless, I'll see you in the morning."

And when the time is right for you to cross the brief divide, I'll rush across to greet you and we'll stand, side by side.

I have so many things to show you, there is so much for you to see. Be patient, live your journey out ... then come home to be with me.

- Author unknown
http://www.showdog-magazine.com/Poems/poem113.htm

[Jayne]

Holy Moley..Warhorse..you just always seem to know the "right" things to say and convey..how beautiful...tears...from a mushy old woman..reading that...

J

[incidentally]

I'm going to try and go to sleep now.

I appreciate each and every post here.

tally

[Moonkatt]

Holy Moley..Warhorse..you just always seem to know the "right" things to say and convey..how beautiful...tears...from a mushy old woman..reading that...

J

I agree. I copied to save, it is so beautiful so thanks, Warhorse.

And for Tally: I cannot add much but am another feeling all the things everyone here wants to give you, comfort and support. I know the magic of animal love and it is potent.

I will just post a picture that makes me wildly happy and hope it gives you a smile. The woman was a vet in CA, now deceased, whose hands healed and loved many. I did not know her but saved the photo because I love it.


http://s25.photobucket.com/albums/c57/Anna8655/?action=view&current=AHenness.jpg

[4Life]

My prayers and heart are with you.

[sofiesmom]

(bolding mine)

I believe HE made it that way so we can fill our lives with as many of HIS precious little creatures as possible. :smile:I've never thought of it like that, but it makes sense.

[incidentally]

Good morning guys. I was finally able to sleep last night. I only woke twice but thankfully not for long.

So far, I'm less shaky and don't feel like my legs are going to give out.

I may try and take a short walk today, weather permitting. Time to start taking baby steps toward a new routine.

My boy was being treated for congestive heart failure which, with medication he was starting to respond to. But in the end, it was lymphoma that took him. It came on so quickly.

[~jomomma~]

i am so sorry :crying:

:rose:

[warhorse46]

Good morning guys. I was finally able to sleep last night. I only woke twice but thankfully not for long.

So far, I'm less shaky and don't feel like my legs are going to give out.

I may try and take a short walk today, weather permitting. Time to start taking baby steps toward a new routine.

My boy was being treated for congestive heart failure which, with medication he was starting to respond to. But in the end, it was lymphoma that took him. It came on so quickly.


Baby steps are what healing is all about. And sometimes you will take two baby steps forward & one back.

[beespence]

Just a quick note Tally....many are holding you close in their hearts....we are all praying for your heart to begin to heal....:rose:

[incidentally]

Thank you.

[Shells2]

Tally, I'm so sorry for your loss..

[TaintedHalo]

Good morning guys. I was finally able to sleep last night. I only woke twice but thankfully not for long.

So far, I'm less shaky and don't feel like my legs are going to give out.

I may try and take a short walk today, weather permitting. Time to start taking baby steps toward a new routine.

My boy was being treated for congestive heart failure which, with medication he was starting to respond to. But in the end, it was lymphoma that took him. It came on so quickly.

Hi, Tally......I walked down and checked with K this morning (11/97 - 4/09) and she assured me she and B (4/95 - 4/09) were there waiting for your baby when he got to the Rainbow Bridge.

I hope you are able to get out and walk a little today. The trees are so green and the roses are in full bloom. Your buddy would want you to enjoy. Remember, he is now running in fields of clover with no problems whatsoever, has made so many new friends, and knows that one day - in the distant future - you will be there to meet him. :)

[wasapi]

I had her cremated..the vet gave me a beautiful plaque with place for a photo...I've carried it with me (very securely) for 18 years..the ashes are in an engraved oak box..to be buried with mine..my Dad knows/promised..we buried Mom last year..and it's "allowed"..that all of our ashes will be placed in boxes/urns on top of mom - it's in my Trust docs. A friend told me she did that with her beloved canine..so I did the same. (may be strange to many) Her memories are in my heart and in photos..and she sort of "lives" through my present feline(s).

Know that many of us here share your "sorrow".

Oh Jayne! I too have left instructions for my ashes to be combined with those of certain - 'creature-family-members' - and scattered together where ever my sons feel is just the right place.

It is something that few people know. Something that can start eyes rolling. But frankly, I don't give a dam#. They have enriched my life in so many ways, taught me so much, showered me with unconditional love, made me laugh during times that nothing else could.

So for those that don't 'get-it', I feel it is truely their loss.

[penguin01]

I Stood By Your Bed Last Night



I stood by your bed last night, I came to have a peep. I could see that you were crying, You found it hard to sleep.

I whined to you softly as you brushed away a tear, "It's me, I haven't left you, I'm well, I'm fine, I'm here."

I was close to you at breakfast, I watched you pour the tea, You were thinking of the many times, your hands reached down to me.

I was with you at the shops today, Your arms were getting sore. I longed to take your parcels, I wish I could do more.

I was with you at my grave today, You tend it with such care. I want to reassure you, that I'm not lying there.

I walked with you towards the house, as you fumbled for your key. I gently put my paw on you, I smiled and said "it's me."

You looked so very tired, and sank into a chair. I tried so hard to let you know, that I was standing there.

It's possible for me to be so near you everyday. To say to you with certainty, "I never went away."

You sat there very quietly, then smiled, I think you knew, in the stillness of that evening, I was very close to you.

The day is over... I smile and watch you yawning and say "good-night, God bless, I'll see you in the morning."

And when the time is right for you to cross the brief divide, I'll rush across to greet you and we'll stand, side by side.

I have so many things to show you, there is so much for you to see. Be patient, live your journey out ... then come home to be with me.

- Author unknown
http://www.showdog-magazine.com/Poems/poem113.htm
How perfect War! I only just discovered this thread and was trying to hard not to cry as I read every wonderful word. Don't we have just the best posters - especially when we really need them! But I really lost it with that poem.
Tally I am So very sorry. Prayers for you and your boy. I know he is fine now: I hope you will be too. Much love! Please take VERY good care of yourself.

[Cornblossom]

I'm thinking of you,Tally. I am so sorry for your loss.


Just this side of heaven is a place called Rainbow Bridge.

When an animal dies that has been especially close to someone here, that pet goes to Rainbow Bridge.
There are meadows and hills for all of our special friends so they can run and play together.
There is plenty of food, water and sunshine, and our friends are warm and comfortable.

All the animals who had been ill and old are restored to health and vigor; those who were hurt or maimed are made whole and strong again, just as we remember them in our dreams of days and times gone by.
The animals are happy and content, except for one small thing; they each miss someone very special to them, who had to be left behind.

They all run and play together, but the day comes when one suddenly stops and looks into the distance. His bright eyes are intent; His eager body quivers. Suddenly he begins to run from the group, flying over the green grass, his legs carrying him faster and faster.

You have been spotted, and when you and your special friend finally meet, you cling together in joyous reunion, never to be parted again. The happy kisses rain upon your face; your hands again caress the beloved head, and you look once more into the trusting eyes of your pet, so long gone from your life but never absent from your heart.

Then you cross Rainbow Bridge together....

Author unknown...

http://www.petloss.com/poems/maingrp/rainbowb.htm

[Santa'sMom]

Tally, My heart hurts for you right now. I lost my HuggyBear (Santa) almost a year ago and I still cry at least a couple of times a week. I lost my Dougie (German Shepherd) over three years ago and I still miss him terribly. The pain never goes away but it does ease a bit. Huggy had been sick for a few months (actually, he was in pretty rough shape when I brought him home, only expected him to be with us a few weeks, months at best and he hung around for almost three years) but had begun to perk up again. Winter was very difficult for him but he was coming back around again and I was looking forward to having one more summer with him. One morning I found him on the ground in extreme pain. I had to make the call to have him put to sleep. It breaks my heart to this day. He was the horse I always wanted and now he's gone. But at least I got to spend a few years with him. I still have 8 horses but they aren't my Huggy. Anyway. Hang in there. After awhile you can go a whole day without crying and then sometimes a whole week. Know that we are all with you. I always try to remember Garth Brooks' song, The Dance when things get too bad. ((Hugs)) SM
Now if I can just find the box of tissues:(

[Casecase]

I am so sorry for your loss. Everyone who has a pet knows that they're not "just" animals, they're our family, our furbabies. I lost my first dog 7 years ago in March. I still miss that guy - even though I swear he was reincarnated because one of my dogs has all of his same, weird quirks! Almost 7 years to the day, this past March, we lost one of our cats. He always seemed so healthy, I thought we had years left with him. My heart hurt so bad and the only thing that got me through was having experienced the loss of a pet before and knowing that day by day, it would get a little better, and eventually the pain of the loss would be replaced by the happy memories, and the tears would give way to smiles.

There are websites that I found very helpful that deal with pet loss - you can read others' stories and know that you're not alone.

My thoughts are with you during this difficult time.

[incidentally]

Tally, My heart hurts for you right now. I lost my HuggyBear (Santa) almost a year ago and I still cry at least a couple of times a week. I lost my Dougie (German Shepherd) over three years ago and I still miss him terribly. The pain never goes away but it does ease a bit. Huggy had been sick for a few months (actually, he was in pretty rough shape when I brought him home, only expected him to be with us a few weeks, months at best and he hung around for almost three years) but had begun to perk up again. Winter was very difficult for him but he was coming back around again and I was looking forward to having one more summer with him. One morning I found him on the ground in extreme pain. I had to make the call to have him put to sleep. It breaks my heart to this day. He was the horse I always wanted and now he's gone. But at least I got to spend a few years with him. I still have 8 horses but they aren't my Huggy. Anyway. Hang in there. After awhile you can go a whole day without crying and then sometimes a whole week. Know that we are all with you. I always try to remember Garth Brooks' song, The Dance when things get too bad. ((Hugs)) SM
Now if I can just find the box of tissues:(

*bold mine

This song?

http://video.google.com/videoplay?docid=3674595221543443747

I should be remembering those that lost their life fighting for our country. I feel the fool for being so self-centered but I thank you, so much.

Maybe this thread should sink to the bottom so we can put out sights on this special day.

tally

[Sorrento]

*bold mine

This song?

http://video.google.com/videoplay?docid=3674595221543443747

I should be remembering those that lost their life fighting for our country. I feel the fool for being so self-centered but I thank you, so much.

Maybe this thread should sink to the bottom so we can put out sights on this special day.

tally

I'm so sorry for your loss. I just want you to know that I don't think you are being self-centered. Just thinking of those who served our country (while you're grieving for your special pet) shows that you care. Years ago I went to a funeral for a man at our church. I really didn't know him very well but sat there and cried big, big tears. I'm sure it looked really strange. I was really crying for one of our cats who died earlier in the day and just couldn't stop crying. Not something that I shared with the widow. Please be kind to yourself and know that others care and understand.

[aproudmom]

Hi tally just wanted to let you know I am sorry about your loss and I know my pets are so special to me..:wub:

[daniel green]

Good morning guys. I was finally able to sleep last night. I only woke twice but thankfully not for long.

So far, I'm less shaky and don't feel like my legs are going to give out.

I may try and take a short walk today, weather permitting. Time to start taking baby steps toward a new routine.

My boy was being treated for congestive heart failure which, with medication he was starting to respond to. But in the end, it was lymphoma that took him. It came on so quickly.

Glad to hear you got some sleep. That is good.

How old was your beloved boy? Was this a sudden illness or chronic?

Take good care of you, Tally. We're sending you good thoughts.

[aproudmom]

Good morning guys. I was finally able to sleep last night. I only woke twice but thankfully not for long.

So far, I'm less shaky and don't feel like my legs are going to give out.

I may try and take a short walk today, weather permitting. Time to start taking baby steps toward a new routine.

My boy was being treated for congestive heart failure which, with medication he was starting to respond to. But in the end, it was lymphoma that took him. It came on so quickly.

take it easy tally I am so sorry to hear this keeping you in my thoughts and prayers..

[sofiesmom]

Tally, My heart hurts for you right now. I lost my HuggyBear (Santa) almost a year ago and I still cry at least a couple of times a week. I lost my Dougie (German Shepherd) over three years ago and I still miss him terribly. The pain never goes away but it does ease a bit. Huggy had been sick for a few months (actually, he was in pretty rough shape when I brought him home, only expected him to be with us a few weeks, months at best and he hung around for almost three years) but had begun to perk up again. Winter was very difficult for him but he was coming back around again and I was looking forward to having one more summer with him. One morning I found him on the ground in extreme pain. I had to make the call to have him put to sleep. It breaks my heart to this day. He was the horse I always wanted and now he's gone. But at least I got to spend a few years with him. I still have 8 horses but they aren't my Huggy. Anyway. Hang in there. After awhile you can go a whole day without crying and then sometimes a whole week. Know that we are all with you. I always try to remember Garth Brooks' song, The Dance when things get too bad. ((Hugs)) SM
Now if I can just find the box of tissues:(How sweet. I got up in the middle of the night,wanting to check on tally, and I found your post. I had a special "Bear", too. He was KodyBear (dog chow) Kodiak. He died the same day that his best friend Caesar passed. It's been two years, and maybe it's easier, but it's not better.

[Lost2Found]

So sorry for the loss of your beloved friend, Tally. Thinking of you as you go through this.

:rose::rose::rose:

[incidentally]

Glad to hear you got some sleep. That is good.

How old was your beloved boy? Was this a sudden illness or chronic?

Take good care of you, Tally. We're sending you good thoughts.

He was approximately 13. We (the vet and I) had been treating him for congestive heart failure recently and he seemed to be responding but then took a turn for the worse. It was then I noticed the lymph nodes on his neck were enlarged. I took him back to the vet and he had (spontaneous) lymphoma.

Interestingly enough, there is an article on WRAL's webpage about about lymphoma in humans and dogs:

Researchers find similarities in lymphoma among humans, canines

http://www.wral.com/lifestyles/healthteam/story/5211709/

[incidentally]

I appreciate posters taking the time to check in on me. It's not so easy for people in real life to understand or know what to say. I suppose it's difficult face to face.

:shrug:

[Erzsebet]

I appreciate posters taking the time to check in on me. It's not so easy for people in real life to understand or know what to say. I suppose it's difficult face to face.

:shrug:

I'm so sorry for your loss. I hope you'll be able to think about a new pup at some point. Look at this little guy. :wub:

http://www.animalrescue.net/D-09-030

[incidentally]

I'm so sorry for your loss. I hope you'll be able to think about a new pup at some point. Look at this little guy. :wub:

http://www.animalrescue.net/D-09-030

He sounds wonderful. He exceeds the weigh limit for my apartment complex but since he would be trained as a therapy dog they may waive the weight limit.

If it's a service dog ie sight dog, there is no weight limit.

Thanks,

tally

[Meridian]

My heartfelt prayers go out to you during the time of your bereavement. :rose:

[lune3]

incidentally, I know you don't know me but I did post on your thread already, and today I'm just checking in to see how you are doing. As a person who has also lost beloved pets, particularly both my English and Irish setters who I loved so much, I feel for you and the pain you have.
I do hope the days are getting just a little easier for you.
Keeping you in my thoughts.

[incidentally]

incidentally, I know you don't know me but I did post on your thread already, and today I'm just checking in to see how you are doing. As a person who has also lost beloved pets, particularly both my English and Irish setters who I loved so much, I feel for you and the pain you have.
I do hope the days are getting just a little easier for you.
Keeping you in my thoughts.

Hi Lune,

Thank you for being so kind. Everyone here has been wonderful.

It has been rough, very, very rough. I saw my doctor today and she has prescribed a tranquilizer for me. She is very concerned about my inability to sleep (I did okay only one night), finding it hard to get and keep food down and my overwhelming grief.

She has been my doctor for years and knows the bond my baby and I had. She was the one that prescribed a therapy dog for me and helped me through the certification process. When I say we were together all the time, I mean except for maybe a total of one hour a week, we were together ALL the time.

So, it's hard, so very hard but I am taking it as it comes. Nights seem to be the hardest, the days the loneliest, if that makes any sense.

I'm on a daily tranquilizer and then another one that is suppose to put me to sleep at night. I took the night time one two hours ago and still cannot fall asleep. I started to drift off several times but end up jerking myself awake.

This is probably more then you wanted to know but it helps to get it out.

I didn't realize until today that this thread had made it over from the holiday board. I appreciate Coldwater taking the time to bring it here.

Thanks again for checking on me.

tally

[daniel green]

He was approximately 13. We (the vet and I) had been treating him for congestive heart failure recently and he seemed to be responding but then took a turn for the worse. It was then I noticed the lymph nodes on his neck were enlarged. I took him back to the vet and he had (spontaneous) lymphoma.

Interestingly enough, there is an article on WRAL's webpage about about lymphoma in humans and dogs:

Researchers find similarities in lymphoma among humans, canines

http://www.wral.com/lifestyles/healthteam/story/5211709/


Oh, goodness, that sounds awful. So, it was sudden?

How are you doing, Tally?

I'll read the article and look for more about lymphoma tomorrow, when my eyes aren't closing.

Hope you have been able to get some sleep and eat something.

Take good care of you.

[daniel green]

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I'm on a daily tranquilizer and then another one that is suppose to put me to sleep at night. I took the night time one two hours ago and still cannot fall asleep. I started to drift off several times but end up jerking myself awake.



Perhaps your doctor can Rx Lunesta or Ambien CR which not only get you to sleep, but KEEP you asleep.

My heart goes out to you.

Have you been able to get some time outside at all?

[lune3]

I'm so sorry incidentally. I feel so badly that you are grieving so very much. You must know that the gift your little buddy was to you was very much reciprocated because you also were a gift to him. I hope that thought can comfort you a little. You gave him a wonderful life and that bond you have will never be broken.
I am glad that you are under the care of your doctor who is well aware of how hard this is for you, and that she is there for you to express your feelings and grief. Maybe you need to still adjust to the medications a couple of days till they take more effect so you can sleep and feel less anxious.
I can understand the loneliness especially since you were companions all the time.
Please take care of yourself,...baby steps....it will become less hard. Know that people care how you are doing.
Sending you good thoughts and prayers.

[lune3]

Perhaps your doctor can Rx Lunesta or Ambien CR which not only get you to sleep, but KEEP you asleep.

My heart goes out to you.

Have you been able to get some time outside at all?

Another possibility is Melatonin. It is a natural hormone with no side effects and is not habit forming and is safe. People have used it for adjusting the body sleep rhythm for jet lag but is now used as a sleep aid as well. It helps me a lot, a sound restful sleep. Trader Joe's has it in 500mcgs. Any drugstore (Rite Aid, CVS) etc sells it too, in the vitamin section in pills of 3mg (stronger than the Trader Joe's ones).

[incidentally]

My doctor offered up Ambien but I was afraid of the side effects I've read about.

She has me on 30 mg of temazepam at bedtime but it didn't work last night. Maybe tonight but I certainly don't want to become dependent on it.

I've gotten out and about a little, Daniel Green. Forcing myself to.

I took melatonin years ago, lune. I might need to try that again.

[angellaw]

tally...I am so sorry for your loss. I am holding you close to my heart and I know in time the pain will go away and you will be filled with all the beautiful memories the two of you shared.:wub:

[TealMermaid]

Sending up prayers for you and your loved one.:rose::rose:
May you know your loved one flies with the angels, and you will meet again!:rose:

[Spyder88]

I think of you so often, Tally, and I hope and pray you're okay. You're a strong woman, but it's never easy saying goodbye to our loved ones. Just remember, your baby has had his final healing and he's having a wonderful time.

:rose:

[incidentally]

Thanks you guys.

I'm going to read for awhile and see if this pill will work.

I'm so weary.

[lune3]

Thinking about you tonight. I hope you will be able to sleep after reading.
Reading every night before you try to sleep can help I think, to both distract yourself and to lull you. If the temazepam isn't quite effective yet, maybe think about getting the Melatonin to help along.

Prayers and good thoughts to you.

[walton]

Thinking about you. :rose:

[incidentally]

Good morning.

I finally got some restful"ish" sleep last night. Not a lot but enough to take that overwhelming exhaustion away.

I didn't take the temazepam but instead opted for the sedative they gave me for the day time.

tally

[Spyder88]

Good morning.

I finally got some restful"ish" sleep last night. Not a lot but enough to take that overwhelming exhaustion away.

I didn't take the temazepam but instead opted for the sedative they gave me for the day time.

tally


If you keep having trouble with sleep, try taking a Benadryl. I use it to help me sleep sometimes when nothing else works.

With fibromyalgia, sometimes the pain gets to just be a bit much and I'm desperate to try anything, but IMVHO, mental anguish is a worse, more insideous pain. Besides, Benadryl is over the counter and cheap.

[incidentally]

If you keep having trouble with sleep, try taking a Benadryl. I use it to help me sleep sometimes when nothing else works.

With fibromyalgia, sometimes the pain gets to just be a bit much and I'm desperate to try anything, but IMVHO, mental anguish is a worse, more insideous pain. Besides, Benadryl is over the counter and cheap.

Thanks Spyder. I had heard of that before but didn't even think about trying it.

[Spyder88]

Thanks Spyder. I had heard of that before but didn't even think about trying it.

When my horse died, after about 6 months I had to go to the doctor and she put me on an anti-depressant. I couldn't even drive past horses in their pasture w/o breaking down. I'm still not over him and I never will be, but at least I can talk about him now. It took me a year to be able to say his name w/o tearing up.

Animals are very special creatures. I thank God for his kindness in bringing them to me. When he takes them home to be with him, it's hard, but I take comfort in the fact that he loves them more than I ever could and they couldn't be in a better place. I really am looking forward to seeing all my pets again. Even the little turtles I had as a kid...:smile:

[lune3]

Tally, hoping you are able to cope just a little better each day and wishing you a better sleep tonight.
Thinking about you.

[daniel green]

My doctor offered up Ambien but I was afraid of the side effects I've read about.

She has me on 30 mg of temazepam at bedtime but it didn't work last night. Maybe tonight but I certainly don't want to become dependent on it.

I've gotten out and about a little, Daniel Green. Forcing myself to.

I took melatonin years ago, lune. I might need to try that again.

Just catching up here, Tally.

Don't be worried about the Ambien--the CR one. Or Lunesta. It's worth the sleep while you are in pain.

A few nights of a hypnotic won't make you dependent.

Glad you have been outside some. Let some sunshine on you.

[daniel green]

Good morning.

I finally got some restful"ish" sleep last night. Not a lot but enough to take that overwhelming exhaustion away.

I didn't take the temazepam but instead opted for the sedative they gave me for the day time.

tally


Good news!!!!!!!!

The sleeplessness just makes everything more difficult.

Probly good to say no to the temazepan if it's for more than a few days.

Hope your day today was a little better.

[beespence]

Just stopping in to say hello and let you know you are still in my prayers. I hope your heart is healing ...even if just a little.

[incidentally]

Thank you. Last night ended up being another sleepless night but I read and read and read to keep my mind occupied instead of fighting to go to sleep. Eventually I drifted off for a couple of hours.

Moment by moment...

[Spyder88]

Thank you. Last night ended up being another sleepless night but I read and read and read to keep my mind occupied instead of fighting to go to sleep. Eventually I drifted off for a couple of hours.

Moment by moment...

~~~ :rose: ~~~

[lune3]

Oh Tally, I'm sorry you had another difficult night. I so much hope your day will be just a little bit better, this will take time,... baby steps.
Thinking of you and sending a prayer in healing.

[Carol25]

Tally, I feel so badly for you. I wish we were closer. So we could talk. I am praying for you.:rose::rose:

[MaybytheBay]

Tally..

Just reading this. My sincere sympathy.

It is said "Hope is the most faithful of lovers'...perhaps we should apply that our animal friends.
They give back one hundred fold every sign of love one ever
gives them.......may the pangs of losing your friend be somewhat lessoned by the solace of knowing how happy a little affection has made them.

[angellaw]

Hi tally...thought I would check in to see how you are feeeling today.

[incidentally]

You guys are so wonderful.

I'm doing okay. I have a relative that came over SICK (upset stomach) and I've been tending to her so I've not much time to dwell. She's sleeping now. Problem is she's sleeping on my bathroom floor. What if I have to...you know "go"? :blink: :biggrin:

[lune3]

Tally, I'm glad to hear you are coping. It's good to have some company, even though she's sick. Hope she feels better soon. Mostly I hope that you are doing ok today, relatively at least.
Not good to be sleeping on the bathroom floor, it's cold and uncomfy lol.
Hope by now she woke up and the bathroom's free, just in case.

[Spyder88]

You guys are so wonderful.

I'm doing okay. I have a relative that came over SICK (upset stomach) and I've been tending to her so I've not much time to dwell. She's sleeping now. Problem is she's sleeping on my bathroom floor. What if I have to...you know "go"? :blink: :biggrin:

Even if you don't have to go, I'd pick her up off the floor and walk her to the couch or bed and give her a wastebasket to woof her cookies in.

She shouldn't be on the floor if she's that sick anyway. The bathroom isn't exactly the cleanest room in the house, no matter how tidy it's kept, and with her so ill and resistance down, she could be making herself sicker sleeping there.

JMVHO

[incidentally]

Even if you don't have to go, I'd pick her up off the floor and walk her to the couch or bed and give her a wastebasket to woof her cookies in.

She shouldn't be on the floor if she's that sick anyway. The bathroom isn't exactly the cleanest room in the house, no matter how tidy it's kept, and with her so ill and resistance down, she could be making herself sicker sleeping there.

JMVHO

I didn't let her stay there long, Spyder. She had been in my bed with a wastebasket but she ran to the bathroom anyway. It took me awhile to coax her back to bed but I did and she's been asleep for about 3 hours now.

tally

[YoYo]

I didn't let her stay there long, Spyder. She had been in my bed with a wastebasket but she ran to the bathroom anyway. It took me awhile to coax her back to bed but I did and she's been asleep for about 3 hours now.

tally

Hi, tally.............glad to hear you have company and sorry she's sick. Hope she feels better when she wakes.

[incidentally]

Hi, tally.............glad to hear you have company and sorry she's sick. Hope she feels better when she wakes.

Hi YoYo,

She's up and feeling better. She took a quick shower and is now on the couch sipping soda and nibbling on some saltines. She's running a slight fever, right at about 99.9.

I just finished changing the bed linens for her. My mom used to do that for me when I was a kid and sick. It always felt so good to slide between crisp, clean bedsheets.

It's nice to have the company, I don't feel as dis-oriented and empty. I still can't believe what a huge hole losing my baby has left.

[Carol25]

You're not kidding me, tally. I know what you said to her that put her on the floor! :wink:
Seriously though, do you think she should be seeing a doctor by now?

[incidentally]

You're not kidding me, tally. I know what you said to her that put her on the floor! :wink:
Seriously though, do you think she should be seeing a doctor by now?

Hi Carol,

Well I asked it on your behalf. She'll be calling you later. :wink:.

She is fine today. No fever and no more vomiting. I had her call the doctor as a precaution and he said she was welcome to come in but it sounded like a "24 hour bug" that has been going around.

I slept on the couch last night and actually got close to five hours.

I received a call from my veterinarian about a possible retired service dog becoming available. I missed her call and called her back and she is in surgery the rest of the day. I hope to hear from her later today or tomorrow.

[Spyder88]

*snipped*

I received a call from my veterinarian about a possible retired service dog becoming available. I missed her call and called her back and she is in surgery the rest of the day. I hope to hear from her later today or tomorrow.

How wonderful for you, Tally! :beer: A new focus and a new friend. Good for you!!!!

:rose:

[DesertStars]

The pain is unbearable. Thank you, so very much, for taking time for me..us.

I don't know how to deal with this, except for a minute at a time.

I don't expect anyone to understand because even I don't, won't, can't.

I only hope you guys will help me say goodbye.


tally

Tally: I hope soon your good memories will outweigh the pain of your loss. You are in my thoughts.

[Carol25]

Hi Carol,

Well I asked it on your behalf. She'll be calling you later. :wink:.

She is fine today. No fever and no more vomiting. I had her call the doctor as a precaution and he said she was welcome to come in but it sounded like a "24 hour bug" that has been going around.

I slept on the couch last night and actually got close to five hours.

I received a call from my veterinarian about a possible retired service dog becoming available. I missed her call and called her back and she is in surgery the rest of the day. I hope to hear from her later today or tomorrow.
Better be careful, Tally, you'll never know what I'll come up with...Tally told me about the parties....need I go on? LOL?

What a wonderful idea about a possible retired service dog! With all the love you have to give, you just have to give it to another loving animal. You do know that, don't you? Deep in your heart you know that. And what a lucky dog it would be. I have tears just thinking about it. You have so much to give.

If anyone could have a large home and rescue the most unloved furbabies, I wish it could be you. And all of the money for the best little toys and not need to work but play and train the babies. Oh what a lovely sight to see them running to you for love.

Buy a lottery ticket this week, okay?. May the puking stop, the lottery ticket win and tiny little furbals with a service dog be waiting at your door step the next time you open your door. :smile:

Then I'll ask if you need a roommate!

[incidentally]

How wonderful for you, Tally! :beer: A new focus and a new friend. Good for you!!!!

:rose:





Better be careful, Tally, you'll never know what I'll come up with...Tally told me about the parties....need I go on? LOL?

What a wonderful idea about a possible retired service dog! With all the love you have to give, you just have to give it to another loving animal. You do know that, don't you? Deep in your heart you know that. And what a lucky dog it would be. I have tears just thinking about it. You have so much to give.

If anyone could have a large home and rescue the most unloved furbabies, I wish it could be you. And all of the money for the best little toys and not need to work but play and train the babies. Oh what a lovely sight to see them running to you for love.

Buy a lottery ticket this week, okay?. May the puking stop, the lottery ticket win and tiny little furbals with a service dog be waiting at your door step the next time you open your door. :smile:

Then I'll ask if you need a roommate!

Thanks. I'll find out more tomorrow, I guess. She didn't call back today but I didn't expect her to.

Carol,

Don't you mean "baby shower"? She didn't find it very funny last night but today she and I have giggled and giggled about it. She said, well I can't say it here..

[Carol25]

Thanks. I'll find out more tomorrow, I guess. She didn't call back today but I didn't expect her to.

Carol,

Don't you mean "baby shower"? She didn't find it very funny last night but today she and I have giggled and giggled about it. She said, well I can't say it here..
It's so nice you're giggling again. Can't wait until we hear about the dog!

[incidentally]

It's so nice you're giggling again. Can't wait until we hear about the dog!

I think my guest/relative made up a new word/phrase. I would be giggling and then start crying at the same time. Trying to keep myself from sobbing I would gulp. Well it's hard to sob and giggle at the same time so she sat there pensively and then said "Tally, I do believe you have the "giggle gulps". That made me giggle and gulp even more.

She's asleep now and leaving tomorrow.

[lune3]

I am glad that your relative is getting over that bug, and even though she stayed with you under those circumstance which wasn't so nice for her, I'm glad you had the company. I think it really did you good. I'm sure you are still feeling such pain, but it's nice to sense that you are having some good forward looking thoughts, and able to "giggle" as well as to post on other threads.

I can't wait to hear about the retired service dog either. And when you are ready it would be nice to know more about your dear buddy.
Take care, you are in my thoughts. Hopefully you will able to sleep better as well tonight.

ETA, ..since I crossposted with you, good she's staying one more night.

[incidentally]

I am glad that your relative is getting over that bug, and even though she stayed with you under those circumstance which wasn't so nice for her, I'm glad you had the company. I think it really did you good. I'm sure you are still feeling such pain, but it's nice to sense that you are having some good forward looking thoughts, and able to "giggle" as well as to post on other threads.

I can't wait to hear about the retired service dog either. And when you are ready it would be nice to know more about your dear buddy.
Take care, you are in my thoughts. Hopefully you will able to sleep better as well tonight.

I'm trying really hard, lune. Your posts have meant so much to me. Just knowing you are checking on me and noticing my attempts to climb out of this grief means so much.

Everyone who has posted here has made a difference. I read this thread a lot. Over and over again trying to measure my progress. But I understand grief is a journey and progress is not always a forward flow but a back and forth movement. I think there is a saying "three steps forward, two steps back.

My baby, my strength has been gone less then two weeks. Sometimes I think I'm pushing myself too hard and other times I feel like I'm not moving as fast as I should.

Just rambling. Thank you again, so very much, for taking time to keep up with me.

tally

[lune3]

I'm trying really hard, lune. Your posts have meant so much to me. Just knowing you are checking on me and noticing my attempts to climb out of this grief means so much.

Everyone who has posted here has made a difference. I read this thread a lot. Over and over again trying to measure my progress. But I understand grief is a journey and progress is not always a forward flow but a back and forth movement. I think there is a saying "three steps forward, two steps back.

My baby, my strength has been gone less then two weeks. Sometimes I think I'm pushing myself too hard and other times I feel like I'm not moving as fast as I should.

Just rambling. Thank you again, so very much, for taking time to keep up with me.

tally

Tally, I hope you are sleeping soundly as I write this. Not sure where you are but I'm on the West coast so it's not as late.

Yes I do check in often every day (I work at home so my time is flexible). I'm sure many of your online friends who care about you here do too.

You are doing the right thing I think, going with the flow, it is a process, but I don't think you should question yourself at all. Nothing should be forced however you feel. I'm sure you cry a lot and hopefully other times you feel more solid even if those times are few between the harder times. There will be progress, healing,.. in time the "forwards" will happen more often than the "backwards".

I think this possibility of a new dog in your life would be wonderful. Your buddy would want that, to give a home and love, and l believe he would consider that a gift to him as well, knowing that what you gave your buddy continues on .. in the sense that what you learned through the love you shared together results in your desire to bond with a new friend who needs you as much as your buddy did. Sort of like "pay it forward" if I'm making any sense.

Everyone is different, for me, when I lost my first Siamese at 22 years of age (the cat) my husband at the time took me to a breeder after 2 days and forced me to choose a dog. It was way too early, the grief was too intense, and I was unable to bond with her till much afterwards, but then bond I did. I felt then that my cat wanted me to, encouraged me to "continue" that love with a new animal as though what I experienced with my cat was that gift from him that needed to "live on" as it were. It did not mean I replaced him, but rather that I loved another "through" him. My English setter was joined later by an Irish who I adopted. They have both since died, The English at 17 and the Irish a couple of years before that as she was older. I grieved so much with them, yet they "live on" somehow through a mixed mutt I have now who I adopted after he was found wounded on the freeway. Though all were/are individual personalities, they are somehow bound together, I guess through that gift of shared experience and love with the original Siamese.

I don't know if I'm making sense but all this to say that if you decide on the service dog, your buddy is still involved. If your heart is uncertain when you meet the service dog, keep this in mind, because I really believe your buddy would want this for you and for him. At the same time, do take care that it's the right time for you. I do believe however that it would bring you a new joy whether soon or when you feel more ready.

[Carol25]

I think my guest/relative made up a new word/phrase. I would be giggling and then start crying at the same time. Trying to keep myself from sobbing I would gulp. Well it's hard to sob and giggle at the same time so she sat there pensively and then said "Tally, I do believe you have the "giggle gulps". That made me giggle and gulp even more.

She's asleep now and leaving tomorrow.
I have a thing about eyes. If you are lucky enough to see this service dog, look into it's eyes. What is he saying to you? That is how I have selected my dogs. Sometimes they look at me so sadly and they seem to say, "Do you have time for me?" "Do you think you could love me, too?"

Hope you get a call today! Your vet thinks you are special, too! You can tell your guest she can come by and play with the dog too since there is no "shower" to plan! :wink:

[incidentally]

Called Vet this morning and she is with patients. Her office manager said my vet plans on calling me during her lunch break. I held back asking her any questions mostly because she didn't offer even a crumb of information.

That's how I got my baby. I was walking through the shelter and I as I rounded the corner these two little eyes locked with mine. I stooped down and he just sat there staring at me and me at him. Other people were coming up to his cage trying to talk to him but he kept his eyes locked on mine.

Our journey began..

[lune3]

Called Vet this morning and she is with patients. Her office manager said my vet plans on calling me during her lunch break. I held back asking her any questions mostly because she didn't offer even a crumb of information.

That's how I got my baby. I was walking through the shelter and I as I rounded the corner these two little eyes locked with mine. I stooped down and he just sat there staring at me and me at him. Other people were coming up to his cage trying to talk to him but he kept his eyes locked on mine.

Our journey began..

In agree what has been said about the eyes. I believe meeting a dog who becomes a devoted friend is meant to be. No coincidence. The opportunity happens because it is meant to be.
I'm anxious to hear what the vet says.

[incidentally]

No call yet. I'm sure today is very busy for her after being in surgery all day yesterday. I'm just going to wait until she calls me back.

[Carol25]

No call yet. I'm sure today is very busy for her after being in surgery all day yesterday. I'm just going to wait until she calls me back.
What ever happens, this call was not a coincidence. When one door closes, God opens another. Even if this dog is not the one, you have opened your mind to saving a homeless, loveless treasure. You could go mosey on over...not saying you should, naturally...:cool:
(you are so patient...)

Do they have homeless dogs there at the vets?

[incidentally]

What ever happens, this call was not a coincidence. When one door closes, God opens another. Even if this dog is not the one, you have opened your mind to saving a homeless, loveless treasure. You could go mosey on over...not saying you should, naturally...:cool:
(you are so patient...)

Do they have homeless dogs there at the vets?

No. She has a bulletin board for lost/found, for adoption, etc. flyers but she normally does not have homeless pets there. Every so often she will take a clients pet in to re-home if she knows the owner and pet well.

[incidentally]

I just heard from the office manager. My vet is try to stabalize a HBC so she can get him transferred to the Veterinary Teaching Hospital at NCSU. She said the Doctor will call me first thing in the morning. Apparently the dog is still with it's handler until they find the perfect fit. I asked her if she knew why he was being retired and she said no, I'd have to talk to the vet about all the particulars.

My curiosity is definitely peaked.